Hello family, friends & random internet viewers. Welcome to my little piece of the internet.
I started this blog in February, 2011 when T and I found out we were expecting a little one. As you can imagine we were over the moon excited. I wanted to have a way of keeping our families and friends, especially those out of state, up to date with pregnancy news and baby updates. I never imagined how much it would change.
Our pregnancy journey was a rocky road full of many dips and scary bumps, but the sun started to show on March 16th when an ultrasound to confirm a blighted ovum actually revealed a baby with a healthy heartbeat. Our joy was short lived and our world came crashing down a short 4 days later when our little one grew wings and I endured the hell of a complete natural miscarriage. An experience I wouldn't wish on my worst enemy.
Slowly this blog began to evolve. It followed our journey through the darkness of grief, the fears of trying again to our journey of trying to conceive with infertility. After three failed Clomid cycles, a clear HSG and good SA, we were referred to a RE. It was not our first referral out, but it was one that changed how we looked at everything. Instead of continuing on our path, we opted to take time to travel and visit our dream places. While on our dream vacation we had the chance to vising the Wailing Wall in Jerusalem. Like millions do yearly I put in a prayer for a healthy little one. Exactly 1 day shy of 4 weeks later we found out we were pregnant!
We had the upper hand this time knowing I have LPD so we immediately headed to the doc to supplement my P4. Everything about the pregnancy was different. I felt like crap, I was bloated beyond belief and we had huge hopes that Offspring would be our Rainbow baby. Sadly, our hearts were shattered once again when we lost our little one on December 14, 2012 at 8w1d gestation. An u/s the next day revealed that despite the pain and horrible bleeding my body did not pass our little one. I endured the hell of misoprostol, but my body still wouldn't let go. Finally on December 21, 2012 I went through a D&C to remove what my body wouldn't let go.
After the loss of our precious Offspring I had blood work done to rule out clotting disorders. It was then discovered that on top of LPD, I have a MTHFR C677T mutation. Once again we were referred out to an RE and this time, we went. We met with our awesome RE on 3/28/13 and began our very short IF journey. After 1 awful cycle and serious discussions with the RE, our journey ended.
We were living the CF life until a surprise BFP thrust us back into the PgAL life and trying to take it day by day.
While this blog isn't always pretty, I can promise it is always honest.
