Month of Love?

Well, it's February 1st. That means all the stores are pushing their Valentine's Day propaganda. I'm getting e-mails up the wazoo from The Melting Pot about their "Romance & Fondue" special. Everywhere you turn there are hearts. None of that matters to me though. I'm so distracted with this 2ww I can't seem to focus on anything else. I wish I could just fast forward to testing day and just get this over with. I'm going into this fully expecting a negative. In theory having that attitude means if we aren't pregnant it won't hit me as hard. Right?